I was listening to a podcast the other day and the interviewer said to the guest “Tell me about yourself.” He began an impressive list of schooling, credentials, and positions.  Although there was a lot of information shared, all very important, I didn’t feel like I really knew who he was.  The things we do and accomplish in our lives are important. However, I feel for us to really know one another it requires the vulnerability to say “this is my heart, this is how I feel, and this is who I am.”

I feel our journeys are about finding our way back to ourselves. An exploration of self and experiences. I choose to be vulnerable and share with you who I am.  The forever wanderer in wonder, always changing, always growing, and doing my best to always stay connected.

This is me at about 6 jumping my bike off a self-made ramp. I’d go faster and higher, crashing and crying. I would get back up when I was ready with excitement just to do it all over again. This is the me before the weight of my stories and conditioning flattened me into years of anxiety, depression, self-sabotage and harsh judgments of myself and others.

A series of life events caused the ultimate crash. The pain and sadness were so deep I didn’t think I could get back up. That was the point… to stay down. I wasn’t getting back up anymore with the joy and excitement like I did as a child. I got up because “I can’t look weak”, “I have to be the best”, “I can’t be a quitter”.

I finally surrendered to what “was”. I started to embrace my Spiritual Awakening. I went into my pain and allowed myself to feel all of it. I came back home to that little girl on a pink bike flying high. The little girl who got back up after crashing not because she was supposed to, not because someone told her to, but because she wanted to. She wanted to keep playing, go higher, have fun, crash and burn, and discover her own power.

Scraping away at our stories and conditioning is part of the journey.  Along the way there is pain and tough stuff. But when we truly surrender to our path, we can see a light shine. Some may call it God, Universe, Higher Self, etc. That light comes in to show us our shadows, but also reflect to us our own Divine Light. When we can see our own light, we can then experience the wisdom, clarity, and peace that lives inside of us.

I strive to stay connected to myself and Spirit. I love discovering and healing things within myself. I love hard and have big feelings. I am passionate about the work I do, constantly blown away by miracles, and walking my path with you.

  ~Jen